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  2.          “She seems, at times, to have read your thoughts. She disarms you by saying, essentially, I know what you’re thinking and I agree, I’m ridiculous, I’m far less than I could have been and I’d like it to be otherwise but I can’t seem to help myself. You find that you move, almost against your will, from being irritated with her to consoling her, helping her back into her performance so that she can be comfortable again and you can resume feeling irritated.”


     
  3.                   Everyone wanted to believe that endless love was possible. They both had believed in it once, too, back when they were eighteen. But love was messy, just like life. It took turns that people couldn’t foresee or even understand, leaving a long trail of regret in its wake. And almost always, those regrets led to the kinds of what if questions that could never be answered.

     
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  5.              It’s the way you remember feeling when you looked at them.

       When I looked at him, I felt real, unconditional love. And I felt completely loved. He was the only person I ever met whose soul I could clearly see in his eyes. And I had more faith in him than I’ve ever had in another human being.


              After I lost him, on the rare occassions I saw him, I could feel the shape, the moving embodiment, of the hole in my heart.

     
  6.        “She longed to know what at the moment was passing in his mind, in what manner he thought of her, and whether, in defiance of everything, she was still dear to him. Perhaps he had been civil only because he felt himself at ease; yet there had been that in his voice which was not like ease. Whether he had felt more of pain or of pleasure in seeing her she could not tell, but he certainly had not seen her with composure.”

    (Jane Austen,”Pride and prejudice”, Chapter 43)

     
  7. It’s amazing I’m in this maze with you
            I just can’t crack your code.
    One day you’re screaming you love me
            loud

    The next day you’re so cold.
    One day you’re here,
    One day you’re there,
    One day you care.

    You get the air out my lungs whenever
                you need it.
    And you take the blade right out my
    heart just so you can watch me bleeding.
    I still don’t know why,
                 Why I love you so much.

     

  8.                      I still dwelled on “what went wrong” much more than I cared to admit to anyone - even to myself; and the thought of it could still stop me in my tracks, send a ripple through my heart, fix a knot in my chest.

     

  9. So I just finished the second episode of Mexican Gossip Girl and it’s not even funny how many Chair/Derena feelings I’m getting right now. Because I’ll be honest, post Chuck selling Blair for a hotel, and the tiring and endless back and forth cycle between Serena and Dan, I shipped them so damn hard. And now, seeing them together again, even if it is in a different version, it brings back major ex OTP feels. I have a feeling that the Mexican writers won’t let Mexican Chair be ruined to the extent that Savage did either, so that also makes me hopeful. So sorry in advance for any Mexican Chair spamming I may do in the next couple of days. (Why do I feel like I’m cheating on Dan and Blair?) As for Mexican Derena, we’ll see about the success on that one. And I guess some things never change, because Mexican Dan stole my heart by the end of the first episode. American Dan would be proud, he’s like a little Mexican protege :’)

    Overall, not too bad though. I even caught myself laughing out loud a couple of times. I will say this though, if you don’t speak Spanish, but especially understand Mexican lingo, it may not be as enjoyable for you. I’m Mexican so I got the jokes, but some of them would be hard to translate for the subtitles. So for those people who are watching it with subtitles, I can’t say you’ll get to appreciate the full Mexican spin-off experience to it :/

    But I’m not saying to give up on giving it a try altogether either, you could end up loving it :) So far I’m not hating it!

     

  10.         “I’ll tell you something…” he said, his voice almost a whisper now.

             “It never even occurred to me that we wouldn’t make it. And it never occurred to you that we would. You were just waiting for us to go down in flames. I thought we could get through anything.”

     

  11. You know, I was thinking. If Mexican Dair doesn’t happen, I think I’ll be fine with it. If Mexican Chair is going to be endgame, I just hope they don’t go down the same unhealthy path that American Chair did. If the Mexican writers pull off successfully writing Chair into a stable, likeable couple, heck, I might even ship them again (only in the AU Mexican Chair version of course)

     

  12. Am I the only one that now regularly checks the Dair tag just to see if there are any new Blair Brooklyn & Dan UES AU photosets?

    No? Just me?

     
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  14. Dair Appreciation Week: Day Six & Day Seven (Favorite Song that Reminds You of Dair and a Dair AU)

    **Song: Breakin’ by The All American Rejects

    "Hold on tight
    Wrap your arms around me til your knuckles are burning white
    All your tears
    Couldn’t match the bitter taste of all these wasted years

    You take take
    Everything that wasn’t even yours
    Wait wait
    You don’t got a hold of me anymore

    In a clear view there’s a silhouette
    And I watch you and I can’t forget
    (Knew we were done when you locked that door)
    Yeah I figured it out now
    Breaking’s what the heart is for
    When I see you in a silhouette
    And you hold close, do you feel regret
    (Keeping me down when I hit that floor)
    And I figured it out girl
    Breaking’s what your heart is for

    (For) so long
    I’ve had to bite my tongue
    But what’s the point if the feelings gone?
    I turn my head (I turn my head)
    A blind eye only sees a memory but all I see is red (all I see is red)

    Now don’t don’t
    Say it didn’t happen that way
    I won’t won’t
    Believe another word that you say

    In a clear view there’s a silhouette
    And I watch you and I can’t forget
    (Knew we were done when you locked that door)
    Yeah I figured it out now
    Breaking’s what the heart is for
    When I see you in a silhouette
    And you hold close, do you feel regret
    (Keeping me down when I hit that floor)
    And I figured it out girl
    Breaking’s what your heart is for

    Yeah breaking’s what your heart is for
    Yeah breaking’s what your heart is for

    And not a soul sleeps
    Another heart skips a beat
    It’s every note that you wrote
    And I hope that you choke on the lines
    You’re wasting my time, another heart beats tonight

    In a clear view there’s a silhouette
    And I watch you no I’ll never forget
    (Knew we were done when you locked that door)
    Yeah I figured it out now
    Breaking’s what the heart is for
    When I see you in a silhouette
    And you hold close, do you feel regret
    (Keeping me down when I hit that floor)
    And I figured it out girl
    Breaking’s what your heart is for

    Yeah breaking’s what your heart is for
    Yeah breaking’s what your heart is for
    Yeah breaking’s what your heart is for
    Yeah breaking’s what your heart is for”

    **AU: Blair tries to come back into Dan’s life after several years without communication, but Dan can’t forgive and forget so easily.

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    The reason I chose this song is because as much as I love Dan and Blair together, at the end of the day she made the decision to leave Dan behind without even so much as a proper explanation. So yes, I am all for Dan calling her out on her bullshit and making her fight for his respect again. And that’s where this song fits my AU too because we all know eventually she’ll come back to him, once she’s realized what a mistake she made in letting him go. But I want it to be too late for her. I don’t like the idea that Dan would pine for her the rest of his life and never move on. I want Dan to have found someone new (not Serena), and moved on from Blair and all the ridiculous drama that came along with being apart of the UES.

     
  15. Dair Appreciation Week: Day Four (Moment You Started Shipping Them)

    Empire of the Son, 4x17

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    There was so much Dair in this episode that it was almost too much to handle. And that fact that they finally addressed the issue of whether Dan and Blair would ever go there was the cherry on top. Before this episode, I feel like I was holding my breath for any sign of hope of an actual romantic relationship for these two. From the very beginning they were my favorite two characters, so naturally, their screentime together was my favorite. But actually believing some feelings would surface between them? Pffftt I knew better than to let my mind go there. ESPECIALLY with the way their relationship had started. Then they started having more scenes together, and scheming and having more awesome witty banners, and slowly but surely, I started letting the idea of them grow bigger in the back of my mind until suddenly I was shipping them hardcore and anxiously awaiting their next scene together.

    And the writers must’ve felt the chemistry too, hence the brilliant episode that was 4x17. Now why the writers ever felt like they didn’t deserve a proper run as a couple, or a proper breakup for that matter, will forever be beyond me.